From child-free to freaking out



WTF is this site?

This site is documenting the journey of a happily child-free woman (hi!) who decided to become a mom in her late thirties (geriatric pregnancy, anyone?). Because I’m not just actively trying to become the thing I never thought I’d be, but I’ll also be actively trying not to lose my mind, trying to learn as much as I can about this whole thing in a short time frame, and ultimately… constantly… actively… trying to be a good mom.

Why the anonymity?

Because I want to make this as honest as possible. And I found that I constantly self-censor if I’m thinking about how my friends, moms, or even my hypothetical future child might feel if reading the things I want to write. So I’m sloughing off all of my personals in order to be more, well, personal.

I’m assuming the name “May B” for this blog. Because maybe I’ll get pregnant and maybe I wont. Maybe it’ll be a girl and maybe a boy. Maybe I’ll regret this and maybe it’ll be the greatest thing ever. My life all maybes right now, and so shall I be.

(Also, yes, I know with some minimal sleuthing it would be stupid easy to find out who I really am. And if you do, just please don’t tell my mom, okay?)

What CAN you tell us about yourself?

  • I’m in my late 30s.
  • I’ve never wanted to be a mom, and have been happily child free for all my adult life.
  • I live in Los Angeles.
  • I have a husband who is the fucking best.
  • I’m an aspiring writer.
  • My hobbies are eating, sleeping, and traveling.

Now that I found you, what do I do?

Feel free to read along for your sneaky dose of schadenfreude. Or (if there are any other child free parents reading this) some much-needed commiseration!