From child-free to freaking out

Parenting

I’m having a girl it’s triggering all my shitty gender issues

I’m having a girl it’s triggering all my shitty gender issues

Gender disappointment is A Thing, and I have it. In my research, I’ve noticed that most posts start off with apologies from the writer for having these feelings. But fuck that. I’m not apologizing for something that’s a normal part of people’s pregnancy journeys. I […]

Okay, now that I’m pregnant… What the fuck am I doing?

Okay, now that I’m pregnant… What the fuck am I doing?

I was being driven to one of my first ultrasound appointments by my husband, and I flipped down the sun shade mirror to try to scratch of a patch of dry skin on my face when I was struck by my reflection. Who is that […]

Is it possible to NOT celebrate Mother’s Day as a mother?

Is it possible to NOT celebrate Mother’s Day as a mother?

Today is Mother’s Day. It’s the first Mother’s Day of my 35+ years of life where I’m technically a mother. And that technicality is about the size of a chia seed and it’s implanted in my uterus. And if we’re getting really technical, I don’t […]

I never wanted to be a mom: From child-free to freaked out

I never wanted to be a mom: From child-free to freaked out

Did you know that some — maybe most — little girls don’t know that becoming a mom is choice? We’re given baby dolls as kids to hold, rock, breast feed(?), and care for at very young ages. And constantly told things like “WHEN you’re a […]