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I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

Once got that positive ovulation test, we fucked so much my vagina was in pain! A week later, I had a feeling I was pregnant again. I peed on a stick a little earlier than recommended (by a couple of days), just to see what […]

On fertility and learning to be patient

On fertility and learning to be patient

I’ve been MIA from this blog because not much has been happening. I was basically in a fertility holding pattern. I was hoping, maybe even expecting, that my uterus would go back to its normal patterns after the miscarriage, but my cycle is taking longer […]

Let’s talk about getting pregnant after a miscarriage

Let’s talk about getting pregnant after a miscarriage

Now that I’m no longer bleeding after my miscarriage, and I’m starting to feel less wildly emotional, I’m realizing that my cycle is probably returning to normal. Another way I’m feeling my systems slowly coming back online is that getting horny again — which was something I was super NOT feeling when I was pregnant. So that’s convenient because…

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How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

It’s been almost a week since I miscarried, and I’m still going through it… I’m still bleeding and eternally diapered in thick AF maxi pads. (I long to feel fresh air on my netherparts again.) I’m still cramping. Yesterday I had cramps that were almost […]

All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

I had a friend ask if there was any part of me that felt relief after my miscarriage. She explained that many of her friends who miscarried had actually felt a bit relieved. So I did a deep dive into my feels, and came up […]

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

I started my miscarriage self care DURING my miscarriage. Fortunately I had an abortion a million years ago, so I knew what was normal for my body while miscarrying. I knew to buckle up and ride it out with a few of my self-care essentials.

If you’ve Googled this topic and ended up here, first let me say, I’M SUPER SORRY. THIS SUCKS ASS. But here’s what helped me suffer through it all in NO order of importance, and some may even make you laugh through your horrific pain… (more…)

My miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

My miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I couldn’t wait for my first trip to the OBGYN. And I am NOT one to be excited about going to a doctors office — I have a phobia of doctors, needles, filling out medical paperwork, […]

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Remember when I was all “Boo hoo, I don’t feel like shit anymore. What’s wrong with me?” Don’t worry, guys, it’s now the 6th week of pregnancy, and I feel like shit again! Like, more like shit than ever! So much like shit that I […]

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

There’s two things you should know about me:

  1. I’ve been child free ever since I realized that was a thing.
  2. Also I’m pregnant.

Which means I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT PREGNANCY!

I’ve never paid attention to all-things-baby-having with any level of detail other than, it looks like it generally sucks. So you can imagine that right now I have so many questions(more…)

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

It’s 5 weeks into my pregnancy, and I don’t feel like I’m pregnant. I’m not getting nauseous anymore. I stopped feeling any of those twinges in my abdomen that I was getting all the time. While I still get fatigued and a little dizzy, that […]