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How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

It’s been almost a week since I miscarried, and I’m still going through it… I’m still bleeding and eternally diapered in thick AF maxi pads. (I long to feel fresh air on my netherparts again.) I’m still cramping. Yesterday I had cramps that were almost […]

All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

I had a friend ask if there was any part of me that felt relief after my miscarriage. She explained that many of her friends who miscarried had actually felt a bit relieved. So I did a deep dive into my feels, and came up […]

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

I started my miscarriage self care DURING my miscarriage. Fortunately I had an abortion a million years ago, so I knew what was normal for my body while miscarrying. I knew to buckle up and ride it out with a few of my self-care essentials.

If you’ve Googled this topic and ended up here, first let me say, I’M SUPER SORRY. THIS SUCKS ASS. But here’s what helped me suffer through it all in NO order of importance, and some may even make you laugh through your horrific pain… (more…)

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I couldn’t wait for my first trip to the OBGYN. And I am NOT one to be excited about going to a doctors office — I have a phobia of doctors, needles, filling out medical paperwork, […]

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Remember when I was all “Boo hoo, I don’t feel like shit anymore. What’s wrong with me?” Don’t worry, guys, it’s now the 6th week of pregnancy, and I feel like shit again! Like, more like shit than ever! So much like shit that I […]

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

There’s two things you should know about me:

  1. I’ve been child free ever since I realized that was a thing.
  2. Also I’m pregnant.

Which means I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT PREGNANCY!

I’ve never paid attention to all-things-baby-having with any level of detail other than, it looks like it generally sucks. So you can imagine that right now I have so many questions(more…)

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

It’s 5 weeks into my pregnancy, and I don’t feel like I’m pregnant. I’m not getting nauseous anymore. I stopped feeling any of those twinges in my abdomen that I was getting all the time. While I still get fatigued and a little dizzy, that […]

First trimester pregnancy is the worst fart joke EVER

First trimester pregnancy is the worst fart joke EVER

It’s only been five weeks and the farting during pregnancy is out of control. It’s both humiliating and scary at times. And SO SMELLY! Omg, so smelly. I silently farted in the car with my husband the other day — like I ALWAYS do and […]

How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

Sigh. Is there ever a moment in pregnancy where you stop feeling stressed out and can actually enjoy it?

I went immediately from stressing out over whether or not I was going to be able to get pregnant, to stressing over losing this pregnancy the moment I got pregnant.

I seriously can’t stop thinking about miscarriage…

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First trimester breast pain, aka “My boobs are going to explode”

First trimester breast pain, aka “My boobs are going to explode”

Even before I found out I was pregnant my boobs started aching. It felt like the normal “I’m going to get my period” boob pain. And then I found out it was more like “I’m going to have a baby” boob pain. And, at four […]