I told my husband that when I take a pregnancy test and find out I’m pregnant, I won’t be surprised. And if I’m not pregnant, I’ll be really confused. The question is: Will I also be disappointed if I’m not pregnant? It’s been almost a […]
Wanna hear something that really freaked me out on various levels? I was at a friend’s dinner party, drinking wine and immaturely making mini cheese sandwiches out of the fancy baguette and cheese plate, when a friend of mine walked in and I noticed that […]
We’re given baby dolls as kids to hold, rock, breast feed(?), and care for at very young ages. And constantly told things like “WHEN you’re a mom…” That’s why, even thought I never wanted to be a mom, for a long time but I 100% thought that I would eventually become one. I assumed that being a mom was something that just happened to you without your consent — like getting your period, or dying. But it turned out that becoming a mom is something we can chose to either pursue or maybe terminate — either way, I was relieved that motherhood turned out not to be mandatory.
I can’t remember the day that I actually realized that. But I can remember how hard it hit me. It was a mind fuck. Like solving a difficult math equation (also something I’ve never been interested in doing).
It was so freeing. Because I really didn’t like the idea of another human inhabiting my body and then bursting forth from it like so much puss from an infected wound (although more painful and somehow more gross). (more…)
Hi! May B isn't my real name, but it's a real good name for now! I'm in a weird place as a childfree woman who decided to be a parent. And if you're on the same journey, know you're not alone. Join me as I try to figure out the wtf I'm doing. Maybe it'll be work? Maybe it won't? But it'll damn sure be interesting.