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Our first (non-depressing) visit to the OBGYN!

Our first (non-depressing) visit to the OBGYN!

We went to see the OBGYN for the first time this week and we got to actually see and hear the baby! He said it was a very healthy looking baby and the heartbeat was very strong. I’m no longer half pregnant. I officially have […]

Turn out, you CAN be “half pregnant”

Turn out, you CAN be “half pregnant”

My dad has a saying, (which he stole from his dad) that goes (and imagine this being said in a Southern drawl by a disapproving white man): “You can’t be half pregnant.” I grew up understanding that idiom meant, something either IS or ISN’T, there […]

Just another post about how your pregnancy won’t go as expected…

Just another post about how your pregnancy won’t go as expected…

I worked, for many years, on a website that dealt with all things family planning. Posts about pregnancy were regularly submitted by our readers, and everything I learned about birth was gleaned while editing these articles. Therefor I KNEW that “every pregnancy is different” and to “throw all your birth plans out the window.” I’ve had those two concepts drilled into my head.

I edited hundreds of articles on how pregnancy never goes the way you think it will.

So why was I surprised when that’s exactly my experience?

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Being pregnant without getting excited just feels like having a disease

Being pregnant without getting excited just feels like having a disease

I am officially four weeks pregnant. Apparently it’s the size of tomato seed and is officially an embryo now. While I’m glad that it’s sticking around, I’m still on track with the “not getting excited about being pregnant” thing. Which means, I’m not trying to […]

I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

Once got that positive ovulation test, we fucked so much my vagina was in pain! A week later, I had a feeling I was pregnant again. I peed on a stick a little earlier than recommended (by a couple of days), just to see what […]

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I couldn’t wait for my first trip to the OBGYN. And I am NOT one to be excited about going to a doctors office — I have a phobia of doctors, needles, filling out medical paperwork, the sound of that stiff white paper you have to sit on, etc. But I was counting down the days until this particular doctor’s appointment. Bright and early on May 29th — the day after Memorial Day — I was going to finally see our baby, and hopefully hear its heart beat.

If you were following along, you saw I had a fairly easy pregnancy, so much so that sometimes I didn’t feel pregnant. So when I saw three tiny streaks of blood on my underwear a few days before Memorial Day, I freaked. I had had zero spotting up until then — week 6 of my pregnancy. This was new and unnerving. I Googled “spotting during pregnancy” and “spotting at 6 weeks pregnant” constantly, and was reassured that if it was light spotting I had nothing to worry about. And it was light spotting, for the next couple days. Until… (more…)

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Why IDGAF about telling people you’re pregnant “too early”

Remember when I was all “Boo hoo, I don’t feel like shit anymore. What’s wrong with me?” Don’t worry, guys, it’s now the 6th week of pregnancy, and I feel like shit again! Like, more like shit than ever! So much like shit that I […]

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

WTF is happening to me!?: Looking for the best ways to learn about pregnancy

There’s two things you should know about me: I’ve been child free ever since I realized that was a thing. Also I’m pregnant. Which means I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT PREGNANCY! I’ve never paid attention to all-things-baby-having with any level of detail other than, it looks […]

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

All of a sudden I don’t feel like I’m pregnant anymore

It’s 5 weeks into my pregnancy, and I don’t feel like I’m pregnant.

I’m not getting nauseous anymore. I stopped feeling any of those twinges in my abdomen that I was getting all the time. While I still get fatigued and a little dizzy, that can easily be explained away by low blood sugar.

So I took ANOTHER pregnancy test.

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How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

Sigh. Is there ever a moment in pregnancy where you stop feeling stressed out and can actually enjoy it? I went immediately from stressing out over whether or not I was going to be able to get pregnant, to stressing over losing this pregnancy the […]