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I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

I’m pregnant again after a miscarriage and things are different this time

Once got that positive ovulation test, we fucked so much my vagina was in pain! A week later, I had a feeling I was pregnant again. I peed on a stick a little earlier than recommended (by a couple of days), just to see what […]

Let’s talk about getting pregnant after a miscarriage

Let’s talk about getting pregnant after a miscarriage

Now that I’m no longer bleeding after my miscarriage, and I’m starting to feel less wildly emotional, I’m realizing that my cycle is probably returning to normal. Another way I’m feeling my systems slowly coming back online is that getting horny again — which was […]

How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 simple ways

It’s been almost a week since I miscarried, and I’m still going through it…

  • I’m still bleeding and eternally diapered in thick AF maxi pads. (I long to feel fresh air on my netherparts again.)
  • I’m still cramping. Yesterday I had cramps that were almost as painful as the first day. I spent hours in bed crying out in pain and trying to pass out and sleep through the worst of it. That amount of pain was a total surprise to me.
  • And I’m still on a hormonal rollercoaster. One minute I’m feeling like I’m starting to move past it, and the next I’m crying uncontrollably on the bathroom floor of a cafe. One minute I’m laughing and the next I’m uncontrollably raging because someone was rude to my dog.

While miscarriage is a normal part of many a pregnancy journey, it doesn’t mean it feels normal. Rather, it feels like I’m going insane because I can’t regain control my brain or my body. I can barely sleep some nights for fretting about everything, plus, you know, the continual cramping and discomfort.

And all through this I’ve experienced everything from the most amazing support to shocking insensitivity from friends and family. So that vein I give you…

How to help someone after a miscarriage in 5 easy ways:

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All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

All the dreams that died along with that damn embryo

I had a friend ask if there was any part of me that felt relief after my miscarriage. She explained that many of her friends who miscarried had actually felt a bit relieved. So I did a deep dive into my feels, and came up […]

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

8 things that helped with my miscarriage self care

I started my miscarriage self care DURING my miscarriage. Fortunately I had an abortion a million years ago, so I knew what was normal for my body while miscarrying. I knew to buckle up and ride it out with a few of my self-care essentials. […]

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

My Memorial Day miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant

Since the moment I found out I was pregnant, I couldn’t wait for my first trip to the OBGYN. And I am NOT one to be excited about going to a doctors office — I have a phobia of doctors, needles, filling out medical paperwork, the sound of that stiff white paper you have to sit on, etc. But I was counting down the days until this particular doctor’s appointment. Bright and early on May 29th — the day after Memorial Day — I was going to finally see our baby, and hopefully hear its heart beat.

If you were following along, you saw I had a fairly easy pregnancy, so much so that sometimes I didn’t feel pregnant. So when I saw three tiny streaks of blood on my underwear a few days before Memorial Day, I freaked. I had had zero spotting up until then — week 6 of my pregnancy. This was new and unnerving. I Googled “spotting during pregnancy” and “spotting at 6 weeks pregnant” constantly, and was reassured that if it was light spotting I had nothing to worry about. And it was light spotting, for the next couple days. Until… (more…)

How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

How I’m learning to chill out and stop thinking about miscarriage

Sigh. Is there ever a moment in pregnancy where you stop feeling stressed out and can actually enjoy it? I went immediately from stressing out over whether or not I was going to be able to get pregnant, to stressing over losing this pregnancy the […]